Sunday my oldest turned 9 years old and it was bittersweet. I am excited about the boy he is becoming, he is so full of life, he has a huge heart and is a great leader. There are times I wish I could freeze time and keep him small, but I know that is not possible. I still cannot believe I have been a mom for 9 years, WOW, 9 years. It feels like just yesterday I was crying when they said I would have to have c-section.
Luisangel was due September 8th or maybe the 9th, I cannot really remember but he didn’t come so I was told we would wait one week and if he had not arrived I would be induced. I was a first-time mom and that was not written in my delivery plan, there was no way I would be induced and there was no way I was taking meds, I wanted to have my baby boy with no meds, all natural and a c-section well that was not in the cards for me, so I thought.
I remember like it was yesterday, September 15th 2009, it was about 6:00 in the morning, I felt like I peed, but I knew I hadn’t it was a weird little sensation and I went into the bathroom where my husband was showering and I said, “I think my water broke,” he was excited yet scared and asked me to go tell my mom. We were staying at my mom’s house, because I am a mommy’s girl and wanted my mom with me and I had begged my husband for us to stay with her a week prior to the baby’s due date and 6 weeks after my son was born, he agreed. I remember walking towards my moms’ room and feeling the squirt again, I told her I thought my water broke she was sure it had not, so she said, “Tell Luis to go to work, your water did not break.” So off to work he went. That morning I had an appointment set for a stress test and an ultrasound. I called my midwife to let her know that I thought my water had broken, she advised me to keep my appointment and go in, so that is what I did. I remember sitting there while they did stress test on the baby, then going for an ultrasound and then seeing one of the midwives. Of course, I had to get checked, I hated that part, and sure enough she asked what time my water had broken and said it was time to go to the hospital. I was not dilated, but my water had broken, honestly, I expected a huge water show but it was not like that for me. As soon as we got in the car I told my mom I was hungry, and I wanted Wendy’s, because I knew once I got to the hospital they would not let me eat, so we went through the drive thru and I got my junior bacon cheeseburger and a coke. We went home to get my things and it was past 11, I was supposed to be at the hospital by 11. I called Luis and he met us at the hospital. They were not happy that I had eaten a burger before going in, I got the glare from the nurse when I told her. This was only the beginning of a long process. I was not dilating and was given medicine to have contractions, which I was getting but they were not helping. I was shaking but I refused to get the epidural. Luis held my hand and let me know when the contractions were coming. He was great help. I was asked several times if I wanted the epidural and I kept saying no. My mom, my mother in law, my cousin Crystal were in the room with Luis and me. I cannot remember who else was there, but I didn’t mind. Birth is beautiful had I had him naturally the entire world could have seen, and this momma would have no shame.
It was about 10:00 at night when my midwife came in and checked me I had only dilated to a 1 and she said she needed to give me the epidural because she thought I was stressed and that was causing me to not dilate. She said I needed to relax, I hate needles, like really hate needles and the water works began, I cried and cried I did not want the epidural. I had a plan, and this was not the plan, aren’t all births supposed to go as planned? She checked me again about 1 am and then 3 and then 5 and I was still the same. She then called the doctor and he said I needed to have a c-section. I remember Marie, my midwife, coming into the room and giving me the news, and yes, I cried, it scared me, I did not want surgery, I did not want a c-section to be honest I felt like a failure. My whole pregnancy I dreamt of having a natural birth, pushing and screaming and having him natural. I remember the doctor coming and trying to calm me down, my husband was just looking at me telling me it was going to be okay. I didn’t think it would be. The time had come they prepped me for the c-section, I was shaking, to be honest I was terrified. Luis walked in nervous and said it is going to be okay.
Luisangel Garcia was born at 8:23 a.m. on September 16th, the day before his Daddy’s birthday, he was 8lbs. 10oz. I remember looking at him and falling in love a love that cannot be described in words. He was perfect, he was mine. I had to wait to hold him and daddy left with him, he had a bruise on his cheek and his eyes were yellow, he was jaundice, and he latched on like a champ. As I sit here and write this I realize now that everything felt like a dream. He was a big boy, he went straight to 3-month clothing and just like that I was a mom for the very first time.
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